Back to the drawing board

I haven't been drawing as much as I would like. They were never masterpieces, but I used to draw every other day or work on a piece for days-weeks. I think for a few months I just wasn't doing anything anymore. It made me sad. because I have a lot of blank pages in my sketchbook but I haven't been inspired. 

At first I thought it was because I was busy with work, which was partially true. But then I went through a dry spell, creatively. All I wanted to do was go out an take pictures. I missed being in South Carolina after the summer and I just didn't have it in me to explore the Michigan landscape. I wanted to be near water, waterfalls, and lakes, and rivers. I just wasn't inspired by Michigan for a while. And then there were times where I would be thinking of so many things to draw or create but I felt like I wasn't capable of taking the image from my mind and putting it on paper. Maybe I should have done it digitally, but I just felt like I couldn't execute.

Now, I want to create. I drew some little skulls and flowers, flowers inspired by watercolor florals I've seen online (I love them so much!). I am doing a twist with them, pointillism. I love pointillism. I'm good at it, I love it. I did it for hours yesterday, drawing that is. Before I decided on the flowers and skulls I did that "You are my sun and stars" drawing. Used my coloring pencils for the first time since buying them for my new coloring book. It's not amazing but it felt so good to do. It was calming. No TV was on, not even music, just me and my drawing utensils. I needed that time for myself. I had forgotten what it's like.

I know I'm not the best at it, but it's my therapy. I just happen to have the chance to be creative while doing my therapy. Eventually I'll find myself again. This is a new process I'm beginning, but I have to do it because I want to keep working on projects; can't stop now. No more fear (even though I'm sure I will think I can't do this when I know deep down I can). Ah! Creativity, welcome me!